o.m.g

This week is so hectic!

I'm very excited for this weekend...My first talent show. It's going to be a joke one because I don't want it to be all serious and then mess up and then have a meltdown HAHA. So I'm not nervous...which is good! :)

I'm bringing Nikki and maybe Astri to church for the...Open Service thingybobber. It's kind of weird I've actually never done that haha. Hopefully it's not awkward for them with liek a gazillion Koreans haha. JoAn can't go because her mom is mad catholic and would flip a crap if she missed mass, and Annette is like aethiest and will not go to church with me LOL What hoes...

I am also super nervous because I JUST got an e-mail from an alumni for a legit college interview...I went on a William and Mary interview once but those are evaluative ones that just "wants to get to know me" but this interview is like a legit one where it counts towards admissions so I am hella nervous. I didn't think it would be so soon! It's this Sunday at 5pm, at her HOUSE. WHAT DO I WEAR. I searched her name on yahoo and she's like an International Trade Consultant, aka I know nothing about so...=( Hope it all goes well and if not...whatever I have like 14 other schools that I will hopefully get into LOL.

So I still haven't finalized my schools? I can't cut from the 15 schools...People tell me to cross out the ones I wouldn't go to if I got admitted. The thing is, I would go to all 15 schools. I keep thinking about the positive things about a certain school and can't eliminate them. Not a great idea haha.

A school I've been looking into more deeply is University of Richmond. Just a few a months ago I didn't even consider this school...An example of why I don't want to eliminate any of my schools. My last school could so easily become one of my top schools. They're willing to give me almost a full-ride; it's in Richmond, but technically it's like in the suburbans of the city which is EXACTLY what I want; it's close to home;  it's kind of New England but it's in the South which I love about too. The only thing is that I hate that it's such a small school with no diversity. It's almost as big as my high school...which is not too exciting. Nevertheless, it's probably my first choice college in Virginia now, even above UVA perhaps?! I still want to go out of state...

The question is, where do I belong? I really, truly want to go to a college where I belong, and will be happy; a college where I will have very few things to complain about. None of those colleges that I would go to because of money, because of a major, because my parents want me to and such. I want to go where I would be happy! Like all NOVA students, I don't want to go to GMU; however, if I will be best fit with that college, I wouldn't mind at all.

I already wrote about this but I am again.
If I keep writing, I'm hoping something will come to me.
I can't write what I want to say in my college applications. It's not me. I want it to scream "SOOJI!" when people read it. My life has been eventful (in a bad way) so I have lots of stories to write about. But it's merely a chronological order of interesting/significant experiences. I'm thinking...I'm thinking...nothing :(